RUN AWAY

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Stop

I tried to breathe, but

Stop

My heart can’t beat

You’re all I can see

No

I tried to let you go, but

You held on to my throat

And haunted me like a ghost

You’re still in my veins,

Are you fucking blind?

I’ve been scratching at my skin

And tearing apart my mind.

You plagued my body, made me sick

I’m okay, I’m not okay

You fucking dick

Stop

I fell apart at the seams,

When you infiltrated all my nightmares

And my favorite dreams

No

I stitched myself up

And licked my own wounds

I stopped lying awake

At the thought of you

You’re still in my veins,

Are you fucking blind?

I’ve been scratching at my skin

And tearing apart my mind.

You plagued my body, made me sick

I’m okay, I’m not okay

You fucking dick

Dear lover,

I wake every morning with

Your name on my lips

Dear lover,

I wake every morning with

Liquor on my breath,

You make me sick.  

I’m okay, I’m not okay

You make me sick 

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It was 2am,

When the drought began.

And darkness fell upon

Our land.

As all the light that was within me

Evaporated like rain so easily. 

You told me that

There was someone else

And all the promises once made

Were no longer felt,

I cried and tried to make you stay

But your heart had already gone away

I have been lying through my teeth

To everyone I know

That your memory is forgotten

That I have let you go

But thoughts of you still swallow me whole

And I completely lose control

I lose control, lose control

I have spent months waiting

For a call

For you to apologize

And explain it all

But that awaited message never came

As we’re no longer those smiling faces

In our old picture frames.

I have been lying through my teeth

To everyone I know

That your memory is forgotten

That I have let you go

But thoughts of you still swallow me whole

And I completely lose control

I lose control, lose control

While you were holding her hand

I was clenching my own

To the thought of her voice

Soothing your mind through the phone

While you were falling in love

I was falling out of line

Begging the skies above,

To return the heart that was once mine.

To bring the light back to me

And remove the burden

You transferred so easily

I have been lying through my teeth

To everyone I know

That your memory is forgotten

That I have let you go

But thoughts of you still swallow me whole

And I completely lose control

I lose control, lose control

While you were kissing her last night

I had my lips pressed to a drink

It’s getting so cold and I miss you,

But I’d never allow myself to think

About you and all of this mess

Tell your new girl,

I wish her my best. 

September 5, 2012

When I was young,

My mum told me not to light fires

She said keep your head high

And stay away from open wires

She said “be everything

That I had ever wanted to be,

I don’t want you to end up like me”

When I grew up,

I learnt how to stand on my own two feet

Never gave out my heart,

Hid away a part of me

No one knew how to handle

The pieces I had left behind

They started dissecting

The things they thought were in my mind

When I met you,

Nothing seemed to make any sense

Chaos filled my mind,

You left me in suspense.

You made me forget about

All the things I was trying to hide.

And somehow,

You snuck your way inside

When I wake up,

You’re still the first thing on my mind

And every night I try,

To retrieve the parts of you that were left behind

I’d call you on the phone,

But I know you want me to leave you alone.

I will try to let you go,

But there’s still one thing you need to know…

You always tell everyone

To never light fires

You always tell everyone

To stay away form open wires

Yet you want someone

To ignite a fire in you,

Yet you want to feel

The electricity in your veins too.

Now I know,

To stay away from the flame.

Now I know,

To hide the parts you want to tame.

Now I know,

That my electricity runs through you.

And I hope,

That some day you will miss me too. 

April 22, 2013

I wonder if she knows that

My name is still on your tongue

When she inhales you like a cigarette

From the oxygen I flowed in your lungs.

I wonder if she knows that

My voice is still echoing through your ears

When she whispers to you on the phone at night

I’m still the last thing you hear.

I wonder if she knows that

My fingerprints are still on your hips

When she holds you close in the evening

And sews together the parts of you left ripped.

And I know you swear that you love her,

But don’t you see?

She falls asleep to the sound

Of your heart beating for me

And I know you swear that you want her,

But how could that be?

She wakes up to her alarm clock

And you wake to thoughts of me.

I wonder if she knows about

Your hatred for becoming predictable

And the way you’ll fight

Until things become less difficult.

I wonder if she knows about

The reason you removed me from your blood stream

It must get under her skin

When she hears you calling out to me in your sleep.

I wonder if she knows about

The way we used to dance in the shower

And listen to the waves against the shore

For hours and hours.

And I know you swear that you love her,

But don’t you see?

She falls asleep to the sound

Of your heart beating for me

And I know you swear that you want her,

But how could that be?

She wakes up to her alarm clock

And you wake to thoughts of me.

I wonder if she knows that

I’m still a constant thought through your mind

And someone your heart refuses

To leave behind.

I wonder if she knows that

I’m still in love with you

I wonder if she knows that

I miss you too.

Verse: Em Am B7 Em

Chorus: Em Am C G

Capo 5th

March 15, 2013

Last night I had a dream

That you gave everything to me

I woke up to haunted screams

To empty sheets and unfinished tea

You leant in close, told me you were sorry

Like you did all the fucking time

For all the things you could never be

I’m so damn over that line

You keep repeating it over and over

Like it will form a new meaning

But nothing will fill this hole

You create when you say “I’m leaving”

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‘Cause I’m done with

Hearing that you’re sorry,

And waiting up for you

At midnight,

When I should be asleep.

I’m tired of watching you get drunk

And lying about where you’ve been.

This time I won’t let you win

I won’t surrender,

I won’t give in.

I remember the first time I met you

I never could have foreseen

You as more than an acquaintance

But look what you’ve grown to be

A ghost, a shadow

A goddamn reminder

Of all the memories,

We’ve tried to put behind us

Make it easy, tell me that it never mattered

That I was nothing important,

Tell me I wasn’t the only thing

You thoughts were caught in

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It’s been so crowded in my head lately,

There’s barely any room for me.

I’ve been staring at the door

But you’re never what I see.

And since you left, I’ve been so tired

Of running towards someone new.

Tired of getting drunk and one night stands,

Trying to forget you.

I can’t forget you.

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I saw your face today

And pretended to be fine

Like I wasn’t lost in your eyes,

Like you weren’t on my mind.

Your scent lingered

Through the winter air

Simple and weightless

Without any burdens to bare.

You’re the stars in the night sky

The hello in every goodbye

The hope searched for amongst the lonely

And all the best parts of me.

And I know they say

That it’s okay not to be okay

But I’m tired of crying

And so sick of trying

To be everything

And nothing at all

I’m trying to hold myself together

But I fear I’m starting to fall

Into all these things I convinced myself

I never wanted,

But with you,

I want it all.

You’re the stars in the night sky

The hello in every goodbye

The hope searched for amongst the lonely

And all the best parts of me.

You’re the sunshine before the rain

The midnight rides on the train

The only place that feels homely

And all the best parts of me

You’re the cup of tea on a winter night

The kind words before a fight

The only thing that I can see,

And all the best parts of me.

I’ve been thinking lately

About all the promises I made

To lovers before you

And the feelings that would never fade.

I’m sorry to all those in my past

For promising you

A love that would always last.

I found someone new

And they light up my night sky

I’m sorry, but

I don’t regret saying goodbye.

You’re the stars in the night sky

The hello in every goodbye

The hope searched for amongst the lonely

And all the best parts of me.

Chorus & Verse: G Am Em C

Bridge: C Cthing Cadd9thing G (D, Dsus4)